Congratulations

A big round of applause to the winners of PEBA. You deserved it guys!
Thanks a lot for being part of Peba. It is my priveleged to be included in your contest and be part of a 37 nominees. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much.
I saw the pictures it's speaks a volume. (at nainggit ako ng sobra :), sana naging parte ako ng program)
Looking forward for the video.
Again, congratulations! Job well done!
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Ano ba ang ginawa ko noong Pasko?
Ang Christmas Tree ay sumisimbolo ng Pasko. Dito sa Taiwan ang daming naglalakihan na xmas tree ngunit ibang iba pa rin sa nakasanayan natin sa sarili nating lugar. Pakiramdam ko dito ay isa na lamang palamuti at wala ang tunay na kahulugan nito, hindi holiday dito. May pasko lahat pati klase ay bukas.

Wala akong balak gumala/lumabas ngunit dahil na rin sa pagkumbinsi ng aking kaibigan sumama ako sa kanila. Ito ay si Ate Edith, masasabi kong Ate ko siya dito sa Taiwan, pinaka malapit kong kaibigan, sandalan, iyakan, tagapayo kapag pakiramdam ko pasan ko ang mundo.

Ate Divina, kaibigang matalik ni Ate Edith. Sinamahan nya kaming gumala.


Isang kasiyahan pala kapag lumalabas, nakakalanghap ako ng sariwang hangin, narerelax ang aking isip at masarap makipagtawanan sa mga totoong kaibigan.

Ito ang loob ng Saint Christopher Church.

Schedule ng misa. Sana naka attend ako ng Misa de Gallo ngunit wala akong makakasama papunta dito. Natatakot naman akong mag isa baka maligaw lang ako.

Ate Wilma, taga Bicol din. Dati ko siyang nakasama sa Hospital ngunit namatay na ang pasyenteng kanyang inalagaan. Halos lahat nagtataka sa akin, bakit wla akong kaibigan na kasing edad ko? At mabibilang lang talaga sa kamay ang kaibigan ko dito. Hindi ako masyadong mahilig makipagkaibigan/makisalamuha sa madaming tao.

Taiwan will host a World Flower Expo on 2010



Temple (hindi ko alam pano translate sa english ang pangalan ng temple)



Breeze Center, nag iikot ikot lang kami kasama ko si Jhoe. Ngunit sa personal na kadahilanan ayaw niya mag post ako ng picture nya sa blog ko.

Kinakabihan ng Dec. 25, kumain kami ng buong pamilya ng Amo ko. (Snail Italian Restaurant) Masasabi kong masaya naman ang Pasko ko dito sa Taiwan ngunit may bahid pa rin ng lungkot kasi hindi ko nakakasama ang aking pamilya. Ilang Pasko na ba ang dumaan na laging wala ako sa kanila subalit alam ko lahat ng pagtitiis na ito may magandang kapalit pagdating ng araw.

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Ilang araw na lamang ay Pasko na. Hindi ko masyadong maramdaman ang kulay ng Kapaskuhan dito sa Taiwan ngunit mapalad ako sa aking mga amo at pasyenteng inaalagaan. Pinagsusumikapan nila na maging masaya ako, gusto nilang kahit malayo ako sa tunay na pamilya maramdaman ko pa rin na hindi ako nag-iisa, na andito sila para samahan ako sa Kapaskuhan.
Ang regalong ito ay nagpabulaga sa akin.
Traveler's jacket ( na kapag naiisip ko ang halaga, sana pera na lang na ibinigay sa akin. LOL)
Hospital Gallery


Dumating ang anak ni Yiyeh. Dito siya magdiriwang ng Pasko. Ito ang xmas gift nya sa akin.


Nagulat ako at natuwa. Sinong Amo ang mag iisip ng bumili ng pagkaing Pinoy? Iyan ang inabot kanina ng anak ni Yiyeh. Binili niya sa Ontario, Canada. Akala ko kung anong klaseng isda, at ano ang meron sa isdang yan kasi ito ang unang bakasyon nya na magdala siya ng ganyan. Bakit hindi ako matutuwa? Siguro mabibilang lang ang among kagaya nila. Sabi pa niya talagang naghanap siya ng Filipino food, nagtanong sa nakita niyang kalahi natin kung anong pagkain daw ang sobrang nakakamiss. Tinapa ang suggestion ng nakausap nya at iyon din ang kanyang binili.

Hindi tungkol sa isda or mga mamahaling bigay ang aking pinahahalagahan. Ramdam ko ng husto kung gaano nila ako ituring na kapamilya. Kung paano nila pahalagahan ang mga karapatan ko at tunay na nararamdaman sa kabila ng pagigi kong isang dayuhan. Sa loob ng isang taon kong pananatili sa Pilipinas, buwan buwan din nila akong pinadadalhan ng allowance. In terms of financials, lagi silang nakaagapay sa akin. Lahat ng personal na gamit sila din ang nagbibigay sa akin.
Ano pa ba ang dapat kung ihingi kay Santa? Napaka greedy ko na siguro kung hihingi pa ako ng para sa sarili ko na kusang dumarating ang blessings sa unexpected ways.
Wish ko na lang justice for Maguindanao Massacre, good health sa family ko at sana 'wag mahirapan ang alaga ko kung kukunin na siya. Hindi ko kakayanin na maghirap siya sa oras ng pagkamatay. Handa na ako na mawala siya ngunit lagi kong ipinagdarasal sana sa maayos at tahimik na paraan.


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"How old are you?"
I'm 31 years old, i've answered

"Do you have a family on your own"
No, im single, i've answered with a smile

Then, i couldn't remember anything. Perhaps i've force my mind to wander, to released all the fragmented images of uncertainties.

Why is it when your in 30's wedding is a big issue? Why they make a big deal on it? Sometimes it's getting in my nerve when most of my friends and relatives keeps insisting the idea of getting hitch. I knew for the fact that they are all concerned in my future life, when i can't do simple chores on my own, when all my youth surrendered in old age but sometimes i wish they will be sensible enough to understand that getting this far is my own choice. It's fine with me to talk about it, jokes on this topic but most of the time they makes me feel like a laughing stuff.

What they expect me to do? Find a guy, grab his hand suddenly propose? I'm getting annoyed sometimes, in every gatherings and occassions it's a big issues that I am single. Who wants to be single anyway? Maybe, i just given up the notion of fairy tale so walking the aisle is not a dream anymore. If it meant to be, it will be.

Before, i admit it scared me to think that i will be getting old alone because being alone in life means failure, that no one loves you and care for you. But as i walk in my journey my views changed. Life is always a matter of choice, whatever the status i am into now, it's merely my choice and rights.

I will hold on to my life. Enjoy the things that i have and the people that makes me feel alive.

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Aminin natin ang katotohanang kapag lumuwas na tayo ng ibang bansa ang pagpabagahe ay isa sa inaantay ng ating pamilya. Sabik sila na makatanggap ng mga padala natin lalo na sa panahon ng kapaskuhan.

Bagahe

Isang karton na puno ng materyal na bagay,
Ngunit sa isip namin iyan ay pagmamahal,
Pakaingatan at inyo naman sanang pahalagahan,
Pagkat perang ipinambili galing sa aming katawan na pagal.

Sa pagbukas na bagahe,
Isipin ninyo sana ang hirap na aming inilaan,
Makuntento sa aming nakayanan,
Hindi reklamo bakit kulang, bakit ito lang?

Sa bawat sentimo na pinambili namin,
Kapalit ng ilang gabing pagpupuyat,
At pagbubuhat ng pasyenteng kay bigat,
Kaya sana aming pakiusap, makuntento kayong ganap.

Inyong alalahanin, inuuna kayo kaysa sa amin,
Di baleng walang mabili para sa sarili,
Basta maibigay ang inyong hiling,

Wala kaming hinihingi na kapalit,
Kundi ang ngiti sa inyong mga labi,
At masabing Nanay salamat,
Sana andito ka, kasama namin.

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okTaipei, at the confluence of two mainstream cultures -East and Western- is an emerging Asian tourist hotspot with a treasury of attractions and distinctive culture waiting to be explored (China Post)

As a foreign worker, i am deeply mesmerized by their cultures and how they manage to preserve the ancient beauty, history and traditions that blends in the modern society.
The Guards
We waited and watched for the exchanging of guards,(which happens every two hours) very interesting way of respecting their leaders.

Dr. Sun Yat Sen Statue
Dr. Sun Yat Sen was a founder of Republic in China.
The gallery in this place is awesome, written in chinese and english but camera is not allowed.


Taipei 101 Building


Once dubbed as the tallest building in the world. It soars 508 meters high. It has also the world's fastest elevator. The observatory is in the 91st floor, you can see the entire view of Taipei City.

Dr. Sun Yat Sen Memorial Hall


The very huge park is in the middle of Taipei. Just accross the Taipei Municipal Building, Times Square, Hyatt Hotel and other famous establishment.




There is a place dedicated for all the heroes who shape Taiwan inspite of the aggression from the Mainland China



The pond is still part of Sun Yat Sen Park. A good place to relax and escape from the noisy city.



Flower Festival
The 2010 Taipei International Flora Exposition will be held here. The government has promised in transforming Taipei as city of gardens.

Daan Park
The largest park in Taipei (259,293 square meter). Construction began at 1985. Was finished and open to the public on March 29, 1994.


Lantern Festival



The newly constructed gymnesium


It was open last September for the World Deaflymics Games. A five minutes in a bus from where i stay.


Entrance of Taipei Arena

When i went there the preparation was in full swing for the games.




Last October 8 it hosted the NBA games between Indiana Pacers vs Denver Nuggets
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Song Shan Armed Forces General Hospital
Dito ako nagmedical kaninang umaga. Maraming nagsasabi na isa ang Taiwan sa may pinakamahigpit na rules pagdating sa health examinations ng mga dayuhang manggagawa. Every 6 months dapat kaming magpakunsulta upang maisalang sa masinsinang propeso.
Information Desk

Flow Chart


Mahabang pila para sa step 2 (eyesight)


Minsan tinatanong ko sarili ko bakit ang higpit ng Taiwan sa medical? Bago ka makarating dito katakot-takot ng proseso ang pagdadaanan sa Pilipinas ( may phase 1 to 3 pa) pag isa diyan hindi ka pumasa kahit pa may amo ka, hindi ka nila paaalisin ng Pilipinas at take note pag dating mo dito sa Taiwan hindi ka nila isasabak sa trabaho o hindi ka pa pwede mag umpisa. Sa airport palang may nag aabang na saiyo kung saan ka nila dadalhin na hospital para sa medical examinations. At may probation period na 40 days, kapag hindi ka nila nagustuhan maari ka nilang pauwiin. Lahat na yata ng exams ginagawa dito pati HIV (lol). Ngunit sa kalaunan may magandang epekto naman ito sa katulad namin para masiguro na malusog at ligtas kami sa karamdaman pero sana libre na lang kasi buwan buwan kinakaltasan namin kami ng health insurance. Nakakalungkot hindi cover ng insurance na inaawas sa buwanang sahod namin.



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Binulabog ang sambayanan,
Kahindikhindik na krimen nasaksihan,
Biktima ay nakahilera, nakahandusay,
Sa sariling dugo, nakamarka ang kahayupan.

Sinong maysala sa krimen?
Pulitika ba'y ganito ang sukdulan?

Gobyerno ba'y sadyang walang kinalaman?
O ginagamit lang ng mga mapaglinlang?

Ang hirap matanggap ganito ang bayan,
Sambayanan naghihikahos, puro pa kaguluhan,
Nasaan ang pangakong magandang kinabukasan,
Kung sa bawat sulok krimen natatabunan.

Sino ang dapat managot sa batas?
Rebelde bang hindi umaamin at nagmamatigas?
Pulitiko bang tinuturo na siyang may basbas?
O gobyernong nagsasabing tutugisin ang mga mapangahas?

Paano makukumbinsi ang mga tao?
Kung mulat na sila at alam ang totoo?
Paano maitutuwid ang gobyerno?
Kung alam natin nasa sistema ang puno't dulo?


Hustisya man ang isigaw,
Kung puro lang salita ang umaalingawngaw,
Kahimikan mahirap matanaw,
Hanggang krimen walang linaw.
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Magdalena

Unti-unting nililipol ng anay,
Ang mga sangang nagbibigay,
Ng pag-asa at pagmamahal,
Sapagkat ang tukso muling kumakaway.

Pilitin man isantabi,
Ang kamandag ng dagok,
Kumakaripas ang daloy,
Ng pagnanasang gustong ituloy.

Nakasubsub ang diwa,
Sa naglalagablab na hiwaga,
Pilit inalis ang maskara,
Ng pag-ibig na huwad sa Kanya.

Dadaloy ang ligaya,
Buhat sa pagal na kaluluwa,
Matang lumuluha,
Kinitil mismo ang pag-iisa.

Sumasayaw ang anino,
Sa dilim ng sinag ng lampara,
Nagpatianod sa pagkakataon,
Hiram na ligaya kinakasama
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What should I do? I must confess my life is like a boat. There's no definite direction. I'm just hanging & floating. I'm tired of this kind of scenario but it is the sentimentality of w/c i'm not ashemed. I value everything but satisfaction of inner self is what I am longing. Where I can find a true meaning of happiness and contentment? I knew then, that in my mind it could be a positive instrument of happiness & bridging over the dark. But why often times there's a force stopping me to go further more. Maybe, I'm not living in a world of reality. Who can justify my behavior if I myself find it very much conflicting.

I live too fast because I don't know where I am going. So, I have to hurry to get there, but when i am there i don't really know what I'm doing. Is it worth it? I can't understand the meaning of truthful YES. I've met storm that damaged my being. I've encountered hurricane that buried my dreams. When I'm beginning to evaluate myself, earthquake test the limit of my soul. I've been trapped with truth & lies, worst & best, even heaven & hell. I can't choose between good & bad. I saw demon, I saw Angel that's why my boat never stop but never going anywhere. I saw half truth, that's the courage why i keep on going.

I'm in the scene of 50/50. As my boat sailed on i knew what I what to but unexpected waves came. I'm not ready to face it. I'm not willing to let it go, at the same time i can't stand firm & sailed on. As i saw the light i want to follow but as i've tried it seems more diming, very far. When I saw darkness its more tempting & easy to walk on but still the force keep on blocking. The waves, the water and the air talk to me. Why? WHy you wouldnt go?
Out of this shaken world which nobody around me. Someone must rescue me. Sounds stupid, sounds crazy I want to escape on this boat & survive from the storm. How? I don't know how to swim. I don't want to die without trying. I have two options stay in my boat wait 'till the time comes or try to move on facing life & death. I can't go on using same paddle & i can't go back using the same route. A shark might kills me. I have this choice GO OR NOT, I chose the OR because it's more safer but OR means nothing, it's useless.

NOw, my boat is sinking.

Please, rescue me!

Someone is coming!

I don't know who?

I can't look straight into His eyes because I am a sinner, a prodigal daugther. His lending with open arms but still i can't reach Him.

I want to go with HIm, let me go!

I heard Him saying, "you're not going anywhere" Have faith my child, you can overcome everything, come follow me!
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Sa Piling Ng Nagmamahal

Masarap damhin ang pagsinta,
Ng walang humuhusga at kumukutya,
Parang panaginip, nasa ibang planeta,
Ito kaya'y totoo na?

Busilak na intensyon ang idinudulog,
Makulay na umaga ang hangad,
Pasuyong ni sa guniguni hindi maapuhap,
Ang kasalan ba ay magaganap?

Sa piling ng nagmamahal puno ng ligaya,
Dahan dahan lang ang pag usbong ng gumamela,
Takot unti unting nawawala sa pag-ibig Niya,
Nawa'y may basbas na relasyon, doon ako mapunta.

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Paggising ngayong umaga,
Naaninag ang pagyabong ng pag asa,
Nagwakas lahat ng dusa,
Sa isang pangako galing sa Kanya.

Sa bawat hagdan na aakyatin,
Sa bawat daan na tatahakin,
Gabundok man ang balakid,
Hindi masasawi at pagagapi.

Sa pusong nasugatan,
Pagpapatawad ngayon nakalagay,
Walang bahid ng galit,
Itinapon na ang pait.

Mahirap tumayo at lumakad,
Ngunit hindi pala ako nag-iisa,
Madaming handang umakay,
Papasukin ko lang sila.

Ito ang hudyat ng malaking pagbabago,
Sa buhay at prinsipyo mismo,
Buong pagkatao aking isusuko,
Sa Diyos na may Lumikha magsusumamo.
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REFLECTIONS
(by: GEMMA G. COMISO)
Taipei, Taiwan


Hindi ako dalawin ng antok. Sa kalaliman ng gabi, naglalakbay ang aking diwa. Samut-saring pangyayari ang naglalaro sa aking imahinasyon. Kanina, nabasa ko sa pahayagan na may Essay Writing Contest ang Pinoy Express. Sasali ba ako sa paghahangad na manalo o bukal sa puso kong ihahayag ang pakikibaka ko bilang isang OFW? Huhubarin ko ba ang maskarang humihila sa akin sa kumunoy ng pagkukunwari? Madaming agam-agam at pag-aatubili subalit may maliit na tinig na tuluyang pumukaw sa aking kamalayan. Gusto kong balewalain at isantabi subalit sa pagdapyo ng malamig na simoy ng hangin na nanggagaling sa bintana, nagpagunita sa akin na ilang araw lang at Kapaskuhan na.

Deep in the night, my mind was on overdrive mode. Earlier in the day, I read a newspaper announcement concerning Pinoy Express essay writing contest. I had thought of joining the competition but what were my motives? Was i after the prize or the oppurtunity to share my personal struggle with my fellow migrants? Did i have the guts to take off my mask and reveal my true self? I was filled with doubt & uncertainty. A small voice however was insistently telling me to do it. I felt the cold night caressing my face. It's nearly Christmas.

Ang pasko sa Taiwan ay pagsasalamin sa iba't-ibang hamon sa buhay, pakikibakang hindi natutuldukan bagkus lalong sumasangang pakikipagsapalaran. Nasanay akong ipinagdiriwang ang Pasko sa piling ng aking mga mahal sa buhay--- magulang, kamag-anak & kaibigan. Kahit gaano kahirap ang buhay sa atin sa araw na ito buong pagmamahal na pinagsasaluhan ang handa na nakayanan. Sa musmos kong isipan, nakakaakit ang pagiging buo ng aming pamilya. Tila ba sa araw na ito lahat nagsasaya. Naririnig ko ang mga halakhak, awitan, tunog ng kampana, mga paputok, ingay ng kwitis at nakikita ko ang mga ngiti sa labi ng mga batang lansangan. Natatalos ko sa kanila ang walang hanggang kasiyahan.

To Migrants like me, Christmas in Taiwan is just another string of many. I was used to celebrating the holidays sorrounded by my loved one--- parents, relatives & friends. Despite of our finacial difficulties, we still managed to have a Christmas feast. You could hear Christmas in the air. The ring of laughter, music being played in the radio,bells ringing, firecrackers exploding. There was a smile in everyone's face.

Pansamantalang kinakalimutan ang hidwaan, pagkakaiba at samaan ng loob. Napapiyak ako sa tuwing naaalala ko kung paano ko pinahahalagahan ang kapanganakan ni Hesus & kung gaano kasimple ang pananaw ko. Habang tumatagal kinain na ako ng paghahangad at ambisyong magkaroon ng magandang buhay. Wala na sa isip ko ang payak & may dignidad na pamumuhay. Natuto na akong lakaran ang landas na hindi naaayon sa turo ng Simbahan at benalewala di lang ang kahalagahan ng Pasko pati na rin ang tunay na pakikipagkapwa tao. Pinagtitibay ako ng pagsubok ngunit mahirap aminin na ibinabaon din ako ng pansarili kong interes. Pikit mata kong ipinagwalang bahala ang kagandahang asal & daing ng kapwa. Maligaya nga ba ako? O sadyang nakikipaglaro lang sa agos ng panahon?

I could not help but cry whenever I remember the Christmas of my youth. Life was simpler then, Jesus was the focal point of the season. As I grow older, I changed. I grew selfish ang I got caught in my own needs ang desires. I was not content with my life. I wanted more. I veered away from the teachings of the church and threw aside not just Christmas but Christian values. I shunned my neighbors ang turned the deaf ear to their cries. Am i happy? Or am i simply coasting along?

Sa aking pagbabalik tanaw, marami akong nadiskubre. Mga nakaligtaan kong gawin, maling desisyon, at kung paano ko inapura ang bawat pahina ng aking buhay. Bigla akong nagulantang sa malakas na buhos ng ulan at sumagi sa aking isipan kung ano ang hirap na pinagdaanan ni Joseph & Maria at ang hiwaga kung bakit si Hesus ipinanganak sa sabsaban. Tiniis nila lahat, nagpakaaba samantalang ako, gusto ko laging nasa taas. Nahihiya akong angkinin at matawag na anak Niya. Hindi ko naisakatuparan ang totoong diwa ng Pasko.

Looking back at all things that I have done, I come to realized that I have messed up with my life. Wrong decisions, missed oppurtunities. I was rushing through life that I missed out on the things that were truly important. The rain woke me from my reverie. Thats's when I remembered Joseph & Mary and the baby thatwho was born in the manger. They were humble of heart & spirit. Me? I always wanted to be number one, to be ahead of the pack. I felt ashemed, I have no right to called as His daugther for I have failed Him. I have never lived the true meaning of Christmas.

The joy of giving. Have I ever given something without waiting for anything in return? How about those peolpe who are in deathbeds? Have I ever uttered a prayer for them while i was having fun in the dancefloor? When a fellow migrant sought financial help, did I lend a money without charging any interest?
Forgiveness. Have I forgiven those who have wrong me? Am I willing to give someone a second chance? Or i am too busy cooking up vicious schemes that would hurt those who have hurt me? Have I ever swallowed my pride?

Pagmamahal. Nagmahal na ba ako ng walang sini-sino, walang inuuri? Ipinadama ko na ba ang busilak na pang-unawa & pag aaruga sa pasyenteng inaalagaan ko? May katapatan ba ako sa aking amo & aking trabaho? Inisip ko na ba na ang kaakiabat ng pagmamahal ay sakripisyo at pagpaparaya? Nagawa ko na bang mahalin ang sarili na may respeto at pagpapahalaga sa dignidad ko? Ipinadama ko na ba ang pagmamahal at paggalang sa magulang ng hindi nagdadabog o kaya'y nagmamarunong?

Love. Do i choose the people whom I think are deserving for my attention & love? Or I am too busy judging people? Have i really felt true compassion for my patient? Or i consider it as just a chore, a paycheck? Am i fulfilling my duties to the best of my ability? Have I ever love myself? Do I value my dignity as a person? Have I been a good daughter? Or have i become too proud that I treat them with derision?
Mag-uumaga na pala. Sa aking pagmumunimuni, ang dami kong natututnan. Nakakahiya pala ako. Lagi ko na lang nakikita ang mali ng iba, mga kapintasan at kahinaan nila. Nakalimutan ko na ako din ay may sariling hangganan. Marami akong pagkukulang sa aking magulang, kapatid, kaibigan at Inang Bayan. Nawa'y sa pagsikat ng umaga, matuto akong tumanaw ng utang na loob at makipagkapwa tao.

Nagpapasalamat ako sa Pinoy express dahil sa pakulo ninyo natauhan ako.Sinalamin ko ang aking pagkatao.Totoo nga siguro ang kasabihang hindi natin alam kong kailan & saan tayo magigising sa katotohanan. Sa magandang serbisyo & accomodating na staff salamat. Malayo man tayo sa ating pamilya kung may gumagabay sa atin smaliit mn o malaking paraan makakatulong ito upang maibsan ang bigat ng dinadala. Sa Kapaskuhang ito pagsisikapan kong maisagawa ang diwa nito.


It's nearly dawn. I have learned so musch about myself in those last few hours. I ought to be ashamed of myself. I am quick to point out the shortcomings ang weaknesses of other people & i judge them at the drop of a hat. I have been blin to my own faults. I am the one ought tto be judged. I have failed my parents, siblings, friends & country. I pray that as the sun rises on the horizon, I would rediscover & rekindle the spirit of Christmas within me. Thank you Pinoy Express for launching this contest. This is my wake up-call.


Honorable mention in Pinoy Essay Writing Contest 2006 (Taipei, Taiwan)
Published in Taiwan News (Kabayan Section)
Photo grabbed from google
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I admit I don't pay attention in my looks, in the clothes that i wear and i hate make up. I live a very simple life, simple wants and simple needs. I tend to be just ME. But after all the heartache and humiliation, drastic changes need to be taken in order for me to grow, to live and move on.


Now, i am learning to take care myself (outside and inside). Meet new friends and having fun with them. I'm not getting any younger, I need to catch up in the lost time. Who knows i will fall inlove again but i am not in a hurry to find love, i am more on enjoying the moment i have in my hand.

I am happy for reinventing myself, for embracing a big change and for knowing my worth. Now, i can say i am in a process of healing. I am thankful for my friends in kablogs ( you know who you are). I am very grateful for standing in me inspite of my imperfections, for giving me wisdom and for encouraging me to find my inner beauty. All of you will be part of my life...

As my family and closest friends say, hindi ka na manang ngayon.... (Lol) The good part of being broken, i lost 6kls in the process. I'm loving it!
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Question lingers in my head,
Why i am too determined to go,
Walk in the path,
And forget your shadows?

The mask is broken,
I'm not in hiding,
The scars is healing,
For the love i found in Him.

I may encounter lots of judgement,
But why should i care?
If the world will embrace me,
Why should i fear?

I have faith,
I believe i am healed,
I may stumble,
Yet I know I am safe.

I don't have all the answerS,
But i have courage to seek,
I don't have all the power,
But i have reason,
It is my FAITH.



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Nalinlang ang sarili,
Ng anino ng pagkukunwari,
Pinilit na humakbang,
Papalayo sa nakasanayan.

Ikinubli ang hiwaga,
Ang araw sa Kanluran iniluwa,
Ang bahaghari na gustong hagkan,
Ay isa din palang pagkakamali.

Umusbong sa isipan,
Ang pagbabagong anyo,
Alipustahin man ang pagkatao,
Titindig at tatayo.

Respeto ang idinadaing,
Ng gumamelang nagising,
Huwag alipustahin,
O kaya'y dutsain.

Nangingibabaw ang pag-ibig,
Buong buhay,
Nawa'y haplusin,
Ng pagsintang marikit.

Sa pagtayo,
Huwag nawang humarang,
At panlilibak ay kalimutan,
Datapwat paglaya ang ibigay.

Lalayo ng tuluyan,
Sa maskarang bumulag,
Sa pagkatao,
At dignidad.
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Believe in the magic of love
Believe in the power of human brotherhood
Believe that soft voice heals the broken spirit
Believe that miracle happens all the time
Believe in the importance of friendship
Believe in the power of prayers
Believe in the merciful God


BELIEVE THAT EVEN IN TRAGEDY THERE'S A POT OF GOLD!
When reason ends, faith begins!
When we hope, we believe!
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A Story Of Bravery

An 18-year-old construction worker braved rampaging floods in the Philippines to save more than 30 people, but ended up sacrificing his life in a last trip to rescue a baby girl and her mother who were being swept away on a styrofoam box.

Family members and people who Muelmar Magallanes saved have hailed the young man a hero, as his body lay in a coffin at a makeshift evacuation centre near their destroyed Manila riverside village.

Philippines residents go to all lengths to escape neck-deep flood waters. Photo: Reuters
"I am going to be forever grateful to Muelmar," said Menchie Penalosa, the mother of the six-month-old girl whom he carried to safety before being swept away himself. "He gave his life for my baby. I will never forget his sacrifice."

Mr Magallanes was at home on Saturday with his family when tropical storm Ketsana unleashed the heaviest rains in more than 40 years on the Philippine capital and surrounding areas.

At first the family, long used to heavy rains, paid little attention to the storm.
But Mr Magallanes and his father quickly decided to evacuate the family once they realised the river 800 metres away had burst its banks.

With the help of an older brother, Mr Magallanes tied a string around his waist and attached it one-by-one to his three younger siblings, whom he took to higher ground. Then he came back for his parents.

But Mr Magallanes, a strong swimmer, decided to go back for neighbours trapped on rooftops.

He ended up making many trips, and eventually saved more than 30 people from drowning, witnesses and survivors said.

Tired and shivering, Mr Magallanes was back on higher ground with his family when he heard Ms Penalosa screaming as she and her baby were being swept away on the polystyrene box they were using in an attempt to cross the swift currents.

He dived back in after the mother and daughter, who were already a few metres away and bobbing precariously among the debris floating on the brown water.

"I didn't know that the current was so strong. In an instant, I was under water. We were going to die," said Ms Penalosa, her eyes welling with tears and voice choking with emotion.

"Then this man came from nowhere and grabbed us. He took us to where the other neighbours were, and then he was gone," Ms Penalosa said.

Ms Penalosa and other witnesses said an exhausted Mr Magallanes was simply washed away amid the torrent of water.

Neighbours found his body on Sunday, along with 28 others who perished amid Manila's epic flooding. The official death toll stands at 100 with 32 missing.
Standing next to his coffin, Mr Magallanes' parents paid tribute to their son.

"He always had a good heart," said his father, Samuel.

"We had already been saved. But he decided to go back one last time for the girl."

His mother, Maria Luz, wept as she described her son as incredibly brave.

"He saved so many people, but ended up not being able to save himself."

copied from: http://www.theage.com.au/
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Here's the list of my personal qoutes:
1. I should love myself first because i can only give what i have in my own self.
2. Expectation ruins everything, so i don't need to expect, i just have to believe.
3. I can't dictate the course of the wind but i can always adjust my sail.
4. Determination will always play a vital part in achieving my dreams.
5. What i decide today will affect my tomorrow.
6. Pray hard, it works!
7. Live in reality not in fantasy land.
8. Friends may come and go but my family will stick to my side and will accept me for who i am.
9. Love your work like there's no other job in the whole universe.
10. Life is a puzzle but how to solve it lies in our own hands.
note: image taken from google
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Nakakabagot
Ang pagbuklat
Ng bawat pahina
Ng aking sinulat

Ang bungad ay masaya
Puno ng pag-asa
Nakangiti
Tumatawa
Ang bawat taludtud,
Emosyong sanga-sanga,
Nangangapa
Sa takipsilim

Ang indayog ng bawat kabanata,
Sinasabayan ng musika,
Mabagal o mabilis na tempo,
Kakayanin, hindi tatakbo.

Ang tangkay ng dahon,
Nalalagas
Katulad ng kandilang
Naupos sa aksaya

Saklaw ng pahina
Ang banayad na ligaya
Ang lalim ng kirot
Ng pusong umasa

Luha'y mistulang tinta
Sa papel na hawak
Kusang dumadaloy
Sa impit na paghinga

Ang pahina ng buhay
Tuloy ang pangungusap
Iba't ibang bantas ang gagamitin
Ang tuldok ay malayo pa.
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I have plenty of disappointments, eventual achievements and many lessons learned. Today when i woke up i tried to listen to the absolute confidence voice with in me. It's been almost half a year that i live in shadow. Maybe, i'm also in denial. I ignore the truth for it hurts me so much. I put a different image in my mind and from there i created a different scene. Wishful thinking provides significant changed but it never last.

I devoured every books i could lay on my hands to enhance my knowlege in dealing with my broken heart. Dr. Phil Mc Graw, Joyce Meyer, Mitch Albom so many to mention author yet i arrived empty handed. It only helped to relax my mind but the truth on these matter i always go back to the first step. I felt totally disconnected with my body, like my mind has its own world and my heart wants a different environment too.

I was deceived and humiliated in a very lowest form i could imagine but has given forgiveness easilly. Is it because i love the person so much or because i was raised not to entertain madness in my heart? Is it really wrong to get mad? I always keep mum and stay patient even if its suffocates me because hiding my real ordeal give me sense of assurance that i am capable of moving on. But the sad part i forgot the sense of leaning on to somebody. I shut them out in my system for i dont want them to be part of my burden but as my Mama told me, they too can feel the pain. The more i kept it from them, the more i remain powerless to unload my burden.

It just got to the point where i needed to choose and sometimes there isn't a way to compromise. Broken promises and selfish embraces affects my entire existence. My mind was stuck and stunned. I stared myself in a mirror, bewildered. I am trying to understand why my steps remain unsteady. The wide open path in my front confused me futher.

Yes, it is a truth that i'm still hurting but its also a naked truth that i made my first step in closing the door. I did the first move not the other way around. I remembered vividly the promises i made too but i have no option only to break and unlock the chain that put me in imaginary cell.
I don't want to escape and run anymore. I will face it head up high. I'm tired of pretending, tired of waiting for you to change. Sure, its not easy, it doesn't happen overnight but i believe it will come. Acceptance is the key to find my purpose in life and determination will get me there in the rainbow. (hahaha) Today, i am my own master!

The rainbow is waiting. I knew this time around its for real. I will continue chasing my destiny untill time comes i can say, FINALLY I AM HOME!
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Hindi ka man lubos na kakilala,
Munting handog sanay mabasa,
Mula sa puso nakikiisa,
Dalangin gumaling ka na.

Naghahangad buhay mo'y dugtungan pa,
Palawigin at ipagkaloob Niya,
Nang sa gayong magabayan ang pamilya,
Sa Paskong darating kayo'y maging masaya.

Wala man kaming maitulong sa ngalan ng pera,
Hindi man ako makabigay ng sapat na halaga,
Ngunit taos pusong panalangin, ang maggigiya,
Mga nakapaligid hipuin nawa Niya.

Sa Diyos ika'y magtiwala,
Walang imposible sa May Lumikha,
Kanyang kapangyarihan walang kapara,
Itaas at isuko, manalig sa pagmamahal Niya.
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