Wala akong balak gumala/lumabas ngunit dahil na rin sa pagkumbinsi ng aking kaibigan sumama ako sa kanila. Ito ay si Ate Edith, masasabi kong Ate ko siya dito sa Taiwan, pinaka malapit kong kaibigan, sandalan, iyakan, tagapayo kapag pakiramdam ko pasan ko ang mundo.
Breeze Center, nag iikot ikot lang kami kasama ko si Jhoe. Ngunit sa personal na kadahilanan ayaw niya mag post ako ng picture nya sa blog ko.
Kinakabihan ng Dec. 25, kumain kami ng buong pamilya ng Amo ko. (Snail Italian Restaurant) Masasabi kong masaya naman ang Pasko ko dito sa Taiwan ngunit may bahid pa rin ng lungkot kasi hindi ko nakakasama ang aking pamilya. Ilang Pasko na ba ang dumaan na laging wala ako sa kanila subalit alam ko lahat ng pagtitiis na ito may magandang kapalit pagdating ng araw.
Traveler's jacket ( na kapag naiisip ko ang halaga, sana pera na lang na ibinigay sa akin. LOL)
Basta maibigay ang inyong hiling,
Once dubbed as the tallest building in the world. It soars 508 meters high. It has also the world's fastest elevator. The observatory is in the 91st floor, you can see the entire view of Taipei City.
There is a place dedicated for all the heroes who shape Taiwan inspite of the aggression from the Mainland China
The pond is still part of Sun Yat Sen Park. A good place to relax and escape from the noisy city.
The newly constructed gymnesium
It was open last September for the World Deaflymics Games. A five minutes in a bus from where i stay.
Entrance of Taipei Arena
When i went there the preparation was in full swing for the games.
Binulabog ang sambayanan,
Kahindikhindik na krimen nasaksihan,
Biktima ay nakahilera, nakahandusay,
Sa sariling dugo, nakamarka ang kahayupan.
Sinong maysala sa krimen?
Pulitika ba'y ganito ang sukdulan?
Gobyerno ba'y sadyang walang kinalaman?
O ginagamit lang ng mga mapaglinlang?
Ang hirap matanggap ganito ang bayan,
Sambayanan naghihikahos, puro pa kaguluhan,
Nasaan ang pangakong magandang kinabukasan,
Kung sa bawat sulok krimen natatabunan.
Sino ang dapat managot sa batas?
Rebelde bang hindi umaamin at nagmamatigas?
Pulitiko bang tinuturo na siyang may basbas?
O gobyernong nagsasabing tutugisin ang mga mapangahas?
Paano makukumbinsi ang mga tao?
Kung mulat na sila at alam ang totoo?
Paano maitutuwid ang gobyerno?
Kung alam natin nasa sistema ang puno't dulo?
Hustisya man ang isigaw,
Kung puro lang salita ang umaalingawngaw,
Kahimikan mahirap matanaw,
Hanggang krimen walang linaw.
Ang mga sangang nagbibigay,
Ng pag-asa at pagmamahal,
Sapagkat ang tukso muling kumakaway.
Pilitin man isantabi,
Ang kamandag ng dagok,
Kumakaripas ang daloy,
Ng pagnanasang gustong ituloy.
Nakasubsub ang diwa,
Sa naglalagablab na hiwaga,
Pilit inalis ang maskara,
Ng pag-ibig na huwad sa Kanya.
Dadaloy ang ligaya,
Buhat sa pagal na kaluluwa,
Kinitil mismo ang pag-iisa.
Sumasayaw ang anino,
Sa dilim ng sinag ng lampara,
Nagpatianod sa pagkakataon,
Hiram na ligaya kinakasama.
Out of this shaken world which nobody around me. Someone must rescue me. Sounds stupid, sounds crazy I want to escape on this boat & survive from the storm. How? I don't know how to swim. I don't want to die without trying. I have two options stay in my boat wait 'till the time comes or try to move on facing life & death. I can't go on using same paddle & i can't go back using the same route. A shark might kills me. I have this choice GO OR NOT, I chose the OR because it's more safer but OR means nothing, it's useless.
Ng walang humuhusga at kumukutya,
Parang panaginip, nasa ibang planeta,
Ito kaya'y totoo na?
Busilak na intensyon ang idinudulog,
Makulay na umaga ang hangad,
Pasuyong ni sa guniguni hindi maapuhap,
Ang kasalan ba ay magaganap?
Sa piling ng nagmamahal puno ng ligaya,
Dahan dahan lang ang pag usbong ng gumamela,
Takot unti unting nawawala sa pag-ibig Niya,
Nawa'y may basbas na relasyon, doon ako mapunta.
Hindi ako dalawin ng antok. Sa kalaliman ng gabi, naglalakbay ang aking diwa. Samut-saring pangyayari ang naglalaro sa aking imahinasyon. Kanina, nabasa ko sa pahayagan na may Essay Writing Contest ang Pinoy Express. Sasali ba ako sa paghahangad na manalo o bukal sa puso kong ihahayag ang pakikibaka ko bilang isang OFW? Huhubarin ko ba ang maskarang humihila sa akin sa kumunoy ng pagkukunwari? Madaming agam-agam at pag-aatubili subalit may maliit na tinig na tuluyang pumukaw sa aking kamalayan. Gusto kong balewalain at isantabi subalit sa pagdapyo ng malamig na simoy ng hangin na nanggagaling sa bintana, nagpagunita sa akin na ilang araw lang at Kapaskuhan na.
Deep in the night, my mind was on overdrive mode. Earlier in the day, I read a newspaper announcement concerning Pinoy Express essay writing contest. I had thought of joining the competition but what were my motives? Was i after the prize or the oppurtunity to share my personal struggle with my fellow migrants? Did i have the guts to take off my mask and reveal my true self? I was filled with doubt & uncertainty. A small voice however was insistently telling me to do it. I felt the cold night caressing my face. It's nearly Christmas.
Ang pasko sa Taiwan ay pagsasalamin sa iba't-ibang hamon sa buhay, pakikibakang hindi natutuldukan bagkus lalong sumasangang pakikipagsapalaran. Nasanay akong ipinagdiriwang ang Pasko sa piling ng aking mga mahal sa buhay--- magulang, kamag-anak & kaibigan. Kahit gaano kahirap ang buhay sa atin sa araw na ito buong pagmamahal na pinagsasaluhan ang handa na nakayanan. Sa musmos kong isipan, nakakaakit ang pagiging buo ng aming pamilya. Tila ba sa araw na ito lahat nagsasaya. Naririnig ko ang mga halakhak, awitan, tunog ng kampana, mga paputok, ingay ng kwitis at nakikita ko ang mga ngiti sa labi ng mga batang lansangan. Natatalos ko sa kanila ang walang hanggang kasiyahan.
To Migrants like me, Christmas in Taiwan is just another string of many. I was used to celebrating the holidays sorrounded by my loved one--- parents, relatives & friends. Despite of our finacial difficulties, we still managed to have a Christmas feast. You could hear Christmas in the air. The ring of laughter, music being played in the radio,bells ringing, firecrackers exploding. There was a smile in everyone's face.
Pansamantalang kinakalimutan ang hidwaan, pagkakaiba at samaan ng loob. Napapiyak ako sa tuwing naaalala ko kung paano ko pinahahalagahan ang kapanganakan ni Hesus & kung gaano kasimple ang pananaw ko. Habang tumatagal kinain na ako ng paghahangad at ambisyong magkaroon ng magandang buhay. Wala na sa isip ko ang payak & may dignidad na pamumuhay. Natuto na akong lakaran ang landas na hindi naaayon sa turo ng Simbahan at benalewala di lang ang kahalagahan ng Pasko pati na rin ang tunay na pakikipagkapwa tao. Pinagtitibay ako ng pagsubok ngunit mahirap aminin na ibinabaon din ako ng pansarili kong interes. Pikit mata kong ipinagwalang bahala ang kagandahang asal & daing ng kapwa. Maligaya nga ba ako? O sadyang nakikipaglaro lang sa agos ng panahon?
I could not help but cry whenever I remember the Christmas of my youth. Life was simpler then, Jesus was the focal point of the season. As I grow older, I changed. I grew selfish ang I got caught in my own needs ang desires. I was not content with my life. I wanted more. I veered away from the teachings of the church and threw aside not just Christmas but Christian values. I shunned my neighbors ang turned the deaf ear to their cries. Am i happy? Or am i simply coasting along?
Sa aking pagbabalik tanaw, marami akong nadiskubre. Mga nakaligtaan kong gawin, maling desisyon, at kung paano ko inapura ang bawat pahina ng aking buhay. Bigla akong nagulantang sa malakas na buhos ng ulan at sumagi sa aking isipan kung ano ang hirap na pinagdaanan ni Joseph & Maria at ang hiwaga kung bakit si Hesus ipinanganak sa sabsaban. Tiniis nila lahat, nagpakaaba samantalang ako, gusto ko laging nasa taas. Nahihiya akong angkinin at matawag na anak Niya. Hindi ko naisakatuparan ang totoong diwa ng Pasko.
Looking back at all things that I have done, I come to realized that I have messed up with my life. Wrong decisions, missed oppurtunities. I was rushing through life that I missed out on the things that were truly important. The rain woke me from my reverie. Thats's when I remembered Joseph & Mary and the baby thatwho was born in the manger. They were humble of heart & spirit. Me? I always wanted to be number one, to be ahead of the pack. I felt ashemed, I have no right to called as His daugther for I have failed Him. I have never lived the true meaning of Christmas.
The joy of giving. Have I ever given something without waiting for anything in return? How about those peolpe who are in deathbeds? Have I ever uttered a prayer for them while i was having fun in the dancefloor? When a fellow migrant sought financial help, did I lend a money without charging any interest?Forgiveness. Have I forgiven those who have wrong me? Am I willing to give someone a second chance? Or i am too busy cooking up vicious schemes that would hurt those who have hurt me? Have I ever swallowed my pride?
Pagmamahal. Nagmahal na ba ako ng walang sini-sino, walang inuuri? Ipinadama ko na ba ang busilak na pang-unawa & pag aaruga sa pasyenteng inaalagaan ko? May katapatan ba ako sa aking amo & aking trabaho? Inisip ko na ba na ang kaakiabat ng pagmamahal ay sakripisyo at pagpaparaya? Nagawa ko na bang mahalin ang sarili na may respeto at pagpapahalaga sa dignidad ko? Ipinadama ko na ba ang pagmamahal at paggalang sa magulang ng hindi nagdadabog o kaya'y nagmamarunong?
Love. Do i choose the people whom I think are deserving for my attention & love? Or I am too busy judging people? Have i really felt true compassion for my patient? Or i consider it as just a chore, a paycheck? Am i fulfilling my duties to the best of my ability? Have I ever love myself? Do I value my dignity as a person? Have I been a good daughter? Or have i become too proud that I treat them with derision?
Mag-uumaga na pala. Sa aking pagmumunimuni, ang dami kong natututnan. Nakakahiya pala ako. Lagi ko na lang nakikita ang mali ng iba, mga kapintasan at kahinaan nila. Nakalimutan ko na ako din ay may sariling hangganan. Marami akong pagkukulang sa aking magulang, kapatid, kaibigan at Inang Bayan. Nawa'y sa pagsikat ng umaga, matuto akong tumanaw ng utang na loob at makipagkapwa tao.
Nagpapasalamat ako sa Pinoy express dahil sa pakulo ninyo natauhan ako.Sinalamin ko ang aking pagkatao.Totoo nga siguro ang kasabihang hindi natin alam kong kailan & saan tayo magigising sa katotohanan. Sa magandang serbisyo & accomodating na staff salamat. Malayo man tayo sa ating pamilya kung may gumagabay sa atin smaliit mn o malaking paraan makakatulong ito upang maibsan ang bigat ng dinadala. Sa Kapaskuhang ito pagsisikapan kong maisagawa ang diwa nito.
It's nearly dawn. I have learned so musch about myself in those last few hours. I ought to be ashamed of myself. I am quick to point out the shortcomings ang weaknesses of other people & i judge them at the drop of a hat. I have been blin to my own faults. I am the one ought tto be judged. I have failed my parents, siblings, friends & country. I pray that as the sun rises on the horizon, I would rediscover & rekindle the spirit of Christmas within me. Thank you Pinoy Express for launching this contest. This is my wake up-call.
Honorable mention in Pinoy Essay Writing Contest 2006 (Taipei, Taiwan)
Published in Taiwan News (Kabayan Section)
Now, i am learning to take care myself (outside and inside). Meet new friends and having fun with them. I'm not getting any younger, I need to catch up in the lost time. Who knows i will fall inlove again but i am not in a hurry to find love, i am more on enjoying the moment i have in my hand.
I am happy for reinventing myself, for embracing a big change and for knowing my worth. Now, i can say i am in a process of healing. I am thankful for my friends in kablogs ( you know who you are). I am very grateful for standing in me inspite of my imperfections, for giving me wisdom and for encouraging me to find my inner beauty. All of you will be part of my life...
As my family and closest friends say, hindi ka na manang ngayon.... (Lol) The good part of being broken, i lost 6kls in the process. I'm loving it!
Why i am too determined to go,
Walk in the path,
And forget your shadows?
The mask is broken,
I'm not in hiding,
The scars is healing,
For the love i found in Him.
I may encounter lots of judgement,
But why should i care?
If the world will embrace me,
Why should i fear?
I have faith,
I believe i am healed,
I may stumble,
Yet I know I am safe.
I don't have all the answerS,
But i have courage to seek,
I don't have all the power,
But i have reason,
It is my FAITH.
Ng anino ng pagkukunwari,
Pinilit na humakbang,
Papalayo sa nakasanayan.
Ikinubli ang hiwaga,
Ang araw sa Kanluran iniluwa,
Ang bahaghari na gustong hagkan,
Ay isa din palang pagkakamali.
Umusbong sa isipan,
Ang pagbabagong anyo,
Alipustahin man ang pagkatao,
Titindig at tatayo.
Respeto ang idinadaing,
Ng gumamelang nagising,
O kaya'y dutsain.
Nangingibabaw ang pag-ibig,
Ng pagsintang marikit.
Huwag nawang humarang,
At panlilibak ay kalimutan,
Datapwat paglaya ang ibigay.
Family members and people who Muelmar Magallanes saved have hailed the young man a hero, as his body lay in a coffin at a makeshift evacuation centre near their destroyed Manila riverside village.
Philippines residents go to all lengths to escape neck-deep flood waters. Photo: Reuters
"I am going to be forever grateful to Muelmar," said Menchie Penalosa, the mother of the six-month-old girl whom he carried to safety before being swept away himself. "He gave his life for my baby. I will never forget his sacrifice."
Mr Magallanes was at home on Saturday with his family when tropical storm Ketsana unleashed the heaviest rains in more than 40 years on the Philippine capital and surrounding areas.
At first the family, long used to heavy rains, paid little attention to the storm.
But Mr Magallanes and his father quickly decided to evacuate the family once they realised the river 800 metres away had burst its banks.
With the help of an older brother, Mr Magallanes tied a string around his waist and attached it one-by-one to his three younger siblings, whom he took to higher ground. Then he came back for his parents.
But Mr Magallanes, a strong swimmer, decided to go back for neighbours trapped on rooftops.
He ended up making many trips, and eventually saved more than 30 people from drowning, witnesses and survivors said.
Tired and shivering, Mr Magallanes was back on higher ground with his family when he heard Ms Penalosa screaming as she and her baby were being swept away on the polystyrene box they were using in an attempt to cross the swift currents.
He dived back in after the mother and daughter, who were already a few metres away and bobbing precariously among the debris floating on the brown water.
"I didn't know that the current was so strong. In an instant, I was under water. We were going to die," said Ms Penalosa, her eyes welling with tears and voice choking with emotion.
"Then this man came from nowhere and grabbed us. He took us to where the other neighbours were, and then he was gone," Ms Penalosa said.
Ms Penalosa and other witnesses said an exhausted Mr Magallanes was simply washed away amid the torrent of water.
Neighbours found his body on Sunday, along with 28 others who perished amid Manila's epic flooding. The official death toll stands at 100 with 32 missing.
Standing next to his coffin, Mr Magallanes' parents paid tribute to their son.
"He always had a good heart," said his father, Samuel.
"We had already been saved. But he decided to go back one last time for the girl."
His mother, Maria Luz, wept as she described her son as incredibly brave.
"He saved so many people, but ended up not being able to save himself."
copied from: http://www.theage.com.au/