"How old are you?"
I'm 31 years old, i've answered
"Do you have a family on your own"
No, im single, i've answered with a smile
Then, i couldn't remember anything. Perhaps i've force my mind to wander, to released all the fragmented images of uncertainties.
Why is it when your in 30's wedding is a big issue? Why they make a big deal on it? Sometimes it's getting in my nerve when most of my friends and relatives keeps insisting the idea of getting hitch. I knew for the fact that they are all concerned in my future life, when i can't do simple chores on my own, when all my youth surrendered in old age but sometimes i wish they will be sensible enough to understand that getting this far is my own choice. It's fine with me to talk about it, jokes on this topic but most of the time they makes me feel like a laughing stuff.
What they expect me to do? Find a guy, grab his hand suddenly propose? I'm getting annoyed sometimes, in every gatherings and occassions it's a big issues that I am single. Who wants to be single anyway? Maybe, i just given up the notion of fairy tale so walking the aisle is not a dream anymore. If it meant to be, it will be.
Before, i admit it scared me to think that i will be getting old alone because being alone in life means failure, that no one loves you and care for you. But as i walk in my journey my views changed. Life is always a matter of choice, whatever the status i am into now, it's merely my choice and rights.
I will hold on to my life. Enjoy the things that i have and the people that makes me feel alive.