Where Did I Go Wrong?
(by: Gemma Comiso)
Everyday was a simple task for me,
Whatever comes, I’ll accept whatever it takes,
That was what I wanted, what I believed,
Until unexpected moment happens when we met.
We both stranger but enjoyed others company,
It was quiet romantic, you told we’re destiny,
Then, all of the sudden your actions showed,
You kissed me & love revealed.
Myself limitations I’ve forgot it already,
I’ve even offered myself for I believed you personally,
Many against you but I never took it seriously,
For me your such a gift given by the Almighty.
By loving you I put aside my priorities,
I’ve taken for granted their wants & advises,
What always matter for me was your happiness,
I didn’t realized I’ve fully blinded by the circumstances.
One day I’ve noticed I’ve given too much,
You got everything nothing left within me,
Even my rights you stole it away,
But you’re not contented & said “you found better than me”,
For how many years I’ve been following you,
For how years I adored you,
All my life I gave the best for you,
Facing the reality is harder to do.
Where did I go wrong my dear?
Why you abandoned me & leave me in despair?
How I can go-on & recover?
If my heart longs for someone to repair?
*Photo was my own shot.
The poem was written 8 years ago during the most trying times in my life, when everything was not in accordance with who I really want to be. I was confused, I was disturbed and always tried to find safe haven in a so called relationship but every relationship I was into failed me because my own shadows was chasing me. I was scared all the time of the uncertainties and failures. What if I failed? What will be the outcome of my decisions?
Now, I am happy with my life. I have peace of mind that no amount of money can surpass it.